Give me the Strength

Give me the strength to get through this. Unscathed. Stronger as a person. Enough of these sleepless nights, crying into the pillow. Give me the strength to take this leap of faith. To have the belief in myself. Give me the strength, all of what I need and much more. I hope it is for the good.
Nobody wishes to live like this. Every time that I used to be down, the only thing that kept my spirits up was the belief that I had a shot at the future. That I had a future to look forward to. A future different than the present. Better than the present. A future in which I lived life the way I have always wanted to. And when you then see that you are walking right into a future no different than your present, then its time to run away. To take that leap of faith. I have been thinking about this a long time now. But each time I'd think that it needs some more time, that things will change in some more while. But I think not. It hasn't. In all probability it will not.

We often make mistakes in our life. Often learn from it. Give me the strength to learn from it. Give me the courage to take this leap of Faith.

Shake a leg baby!

I'm surrounded by kids at my place. In total, cousins and their children excluded, I have right now 4 in-house kids, with two more on their way. And how I love it! The pure joy of playing with them all together. Playing their games, running behind them, tickling them, throwing them up in the air, annoying their mums by teaching them silly habits, having meaningful conversations with them, conversations ranging from their friends, to my friends, to cricket, even about our dear god. How I love that!
And you know what I love the most? I love dancing with them. Like nothing else. Put me in a room with my nieces and nephews, with music, lock me away! I dance my heart out. Normally when I'm dancing, I'm worried about whether my step is right, worried if its looking awkward, wondering if it really is as graceful as it seems to me. But here, the more I get my steps wrong, the more they enjoy :-D So what's to worry about, they don't care how close your steps are to the ones they see on tv. No they don't. Make it slapstick, they jump with joy! Miss a step and fall down, they roll on the floor laughing! Dance with your limbs pointing towards all possible directions, and see them try that earnestly! And then falling on the floor laughing together. I'm no expert when it comes to dance at all, but this, to me is the best form, best style, best genre, best troupe of dancing. This is dancing in its truest form, its truest purpose. Dancing For Joy.

What would I do if money was no object?

Yesterday I came across Times Now's Amazing Indian Awards. To see so many people working so earnestly towards issues close to their Heart is so heartwarming. Their work is something that really does matter. Something that is affecting lives, changing people, making a difference. Instead of just sitting in a cubicle, typing away things you know nothing about into the computer, while trying to convince yourself that your work is substantial. No its not. Maybe the money that it brings is, but your work Is not. It does not matter if its u or some one else is typing into it.

When we are kids, we have a million different dreams of what we want to be, each one decided by our happiness, and our interest during that particular time alone. I for one wanted to be a Social Worker, a Doctor, an Astronaut, a Politician, a Farmer, a Traveler, Psychiatrist, be a part of the government. Some other times I've just wanted to help people around me, be a mentor, a teacher and go to villages and help making their lives better. That's one distinct dream that I remember I had. Back then I knew what I want to do, I knew where my happiness lies. Unfortunately for now, we are so hung up about its scope, the money it brings, the pressure involved, the time that it takes to be successful. No wonder a Job is Work.
What would you do if money was no object? What would I do if I didn't have to worry about money? Well, for starters, I think I'd first realise my dream of owning a farm, raising food and leading a sustainable life. Then I'd go travelling to different places and record my travels. Savour their food in every corner of the world. Meet new people, learn about different new things. I would be part of the government, helping in actual materialisation of its various different projects and initiatives. I would sponsor and mentor children towards a better life. I would learn to ride horses. Go swimming in the sea. I would grow trees all around my house and tie hammocks on them. I would go to the top of a cliff, alone, and sit there, staring out. That's what I would do.